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wahzhzhz~ juz had an islandwide blackout for almost 1.1/2 hr!!! scary manz!!!! so dark...so hot....so bored....caught mi by surprise....Haha~ but overall quite fun larz....excuss to take a break from studying. When suddenly blackout, can hear the whole neighbourhood's shocking sound, then slowly see small little sparkles of torch ligths and candle lights from every househole window....look a bit like national day parade yea~ hahah~ then got ppl make use of situation make funni sounds etc....getting fun out of misery...
More worried abt the traffic on the road. Traffic light also down, all the cars dunno when to stop and when to go...ppl crossing the road also like veri dangerous...luckily nothing much happened manz....
Haha~ watever...wad an experience to remember. Actually Singapore look pretty cool when its all dark yea~ (once in a while)...hahha~ finally some peaceful moments and no more buzzing night life...woahz~
watever, chem paper 1,2 and Phy Paper 1 left. Jia you..Hope i didn't die too badly for tis time...
Wednesday, June 30, 2004
Saturday, June 26, 2004
boohhoo...two days never blog liaoz....cos life has been so monotonous that there's nothing much for mi to say....and i bet the life to come will b as dry...*sob* wad to do.....a phrase i must go through before i can enjoy. I CAN'T WAIT FOR A'S TO B OVER!!!!
Hmmm....realli nothing much manz...tink the more happening part of these few day will b watching the Euro2004 match lorz.Wahahaha....everything is so unexpected manz..... Portu won England, Greece won Franch. Hmm...in the sports areana, everything is always so unexpected. No one is the ultimate winner until the end. Haiz, watever. Realised England wasn't that good after all. Haha~ but guess wadz, I tink Ronaldo from "Portu is cute!! hahah~ tink Weini is right, he has got the punk look, which is why i tink he caught my attention. (oopse, am i watching the ball or am i watching the guys?!?!) muahahah...yeah~ juz tink that he look kind of cheeky on the field, yet serious and focused during the game....so cute!!!!Okay~ wadever,haiz....hope by semi-finals and finals, exam would haf ended manz~
Yeah~ 2dae, exam started.GP paper. Apparently my most confident paper yet i screwed it up. Esp Paper1, dun even noe what am i writing manz. Chose a sucky question , which only at the end then i realised that i dunno how to write. Paper 2 also didn't manage to finish AQ.Haiz...gone case. Confirm fail wanz. Tink tis time i a bit complacent over GP, tot i sure can do wanz, then didn't bother to revise or do any preparation. Regret. Nvm, lesson learnt, shall study and prepare myself better for Prelims and A's.
Yurpz, Chem and Math on Mon and Phy on tue, all haven finish studying. Gonna mug againz~ Hope i dun do too over badly for this coming mid-yrs....*bLaRz*
Fun. You Truly Desire Fun. Your always willing and
ready to play a game, whatever it may be. But
be careful, you cn tend to get a little too
competitive.
What Do You Truly Desire? *PICS*
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Punk! My kind of friend. You could care less what
other ppl think of you. You want friends who
like you for who you are and not what you have.
I mean, sure, sometimes you stick fries up your
nose, but thats ok. People love you because you
crack them up immensly! Your amoung friends!
Rate my quiz fellow Homie!
Are you one of the three P's? (Punk/Prep/Poser)?
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footsie - you like to goof around and laugh with
the people you care about.
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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mUaHaHAa~ wads tat?!?!?
Saturday, June 26, 2004
Thursday, June 24, 2004
To my friends:
What You Are To Me
I am a rose, you are my thorns,
clutching to me, protecting me.
I am the sun, you are my rays,
helping me to shine and to be all that I can.
I am a lake, you are my water,
filling me with ideas, dreams, and hopes for the future.
I am a tree, you are my leaves,
sharing who and what I am
and becoming an important part of my life.
I am a heart, you are my beat,
beating rhythmically to my happiness,
my fear, my sadness, my excitement.
I am me and you are with me,
to share all that I am,
to share life, love, and happiness.
Always.
- Bernice Ellrick -
::I believe in angels,The kind that heaven sends,
I am surrounded by angels,But I call them friends.::- Aizabel Parinas
Your Heart is Pink
What Color is Your Heart?
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Well your Happy, yes thats right your so happy, so
pretty and witty and if i go on any more i will
have to pay for the rights of this song so,
great jop your one of the lucky ones.
What Emotion Dominates you?
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Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Thursday, June 24, 2004
Tuesday, June 22, 2004
yeah~! lovely day~
12:30p.m
Met Shawn, wen chien, wan leng, victor, hong jun, xing cong, pei wen, sherlyn at J8 2dae to go Bishan Home. Had lunch at yoshi first. Haha~ at Yoshi, damm funni, Hong jun and wan leng tat couple is damm funni but sweet, pushing food to each other. Hong Jun blamm wan leng for making him so fat and wen chien keep saying wan leng so thin bcos Hongjun steal her food.
Wahz....never expect couples to emerge from my group before. Haha~ last time somewan told mi that yv has nurtured a lot of couples liaoz...and especially in the volunteering field, a lot of successful couples. Haha~ now tink of it quite true yea~ a lot of love birds tat i noe...haha Cliff and Sara,jun wen and lijie, etc etc and many more whom wasn't veri successful and many more which i tink i dun noe..wadever...hahah so sweet...-= love is in the air=-
2:00p.m
Reach Bishan Home,woahz~ realli miss the place manz...miss all the people, miss those days of attachment there, miss those warm stuff who are like our friends. Yurpz, the moment we step in, some of them recognize us and greeted us so happily. Woahz, they juz give u a feeling like u juz returned home after a long journey or something. Kit Weng as usual gave us a veri sweet smile and ask us to write in his book. So cute!!! yurpz, we were given the job to scrub the floors of two dorms. DAmm funni larz!!!! The toilets realli stink like hell manz! Oni Victor and Hongjun dare to hold their breathe to go in to wash. Haha~ not forgeting the shit incident...hahah~ YUCKS!!!okaez...shall not go into it...its juz duisguisting manz.
Yeah~ Shawn and I haf to leave early to study. Before we left, went to the MPH where most of the clients were to juz see them. When we walked in, mi and Shawn was toking, suddenly Wan Ting juz walk over and hold my hand.WAhz!! She's juz such a sweetheart lorz!!! Miss her so much manz! She pull mi to sit beside her and like she always does, she juz stare at mi with the looks like 'I miss you so much' that type of thing... Wahz~ melted manz...Then as usual, she hugged and sniff mi~ WAhz! U juz feel like staying with her forever manz... No conversation, but the feeling is juz there. Know that she miss mi and is so happi to see mi and same for mi too.
Too bad, can't stay for long. Had to say bye to Wan Ting and promised her i will come back next time to sing sogn wif her. (Hope i keep up to my promise). WEnt around to see and tok tosome other clients. Saw Steve, Eng Leng, Kenneth and some otehr clients at the cafe area also. Eng leng is another darling manz... So Happi when see us. I say next time bring him go see monkey again~ then he so excited~ hahahha~ lolz...
yurpz, after that Shawn and I went to the interchange Macs to find Shane to study, but Macs was so crowded lorz! Forget it.. mi and Shawn went j8 to pig around instead. Had great fun toking to Shawn manz...juz always haf so much topic to say wif her....hahah endless manz... Oh Yar!!! Saw Andre too~ haha more like he saw mi~
yurpz! feel so good today. Like love is all around. I love the people at Bishan Home and all my volunteers too! never felt so proud of any of my other groups. I mean, usually is expect the team facilitor to gather everyone back to go back to volunteer, but they took the initiative to arrange everything, call up the home and then ask us along instead. I tink this is truely the type of volunteers we are hoping to nurture lorz~ And can realli see that they are people who realli wants to volunteer from the bottom of their heart and more importantly, they enjoy it! Yeah` specially mention to Victor, who juz came and join us at Bishan Home when we asked him to even though he's not from YV like us manz..manage to clit veri well wif the rest and he realli puts in a lot of effort manz~ *clap*clap* yurpz, hope together with this group of volunteers, can further develop the YMCA-Bishan Volunteer Group. oh yar, toking abt that,tink since we are in-charge of it, we better start putting in more effort into it manz, so far like always sae and never do.
yurpz... so much sentiments today!!!
2dae when watch Child's hope II, I cried, the boy is juz so poor thing. Suddenly a lot of thoughts run in my mind:
1. Sometimes, when people are driven to the extreme and break down, just a little love from the people around can bring about brightness, hope and a little smile.
2. Be appreciative of what we are now and what we have. Cos not everyone in the world are lucky like what we are. simplicity is the way to happiness.
3. I have eyes to see the beautiful world, lets share the beautiful sights wif people around us.
I have ears to hear the sound of my friends, lets not be stingy wif our communications.
I have mouth that I can express, lets express our love and concern for the others.
okayz...trying to sound poetic, but juz feel that with the ability why not spread some love to the people aound us, its realli juz so siple, yet so wonderful.
Yeah~ juz now nothing to do, went search for YVIP blogs, came out a lot of people's blog that has mentioned about YVIP. Sorrie, went to read it, apologise for invading of privacy. but i realised that YV has realli created an impact in many people's life juz like what it did to mine. Too bad tis yr's yv04 has been disbanded. Hope one day YV can be organized again so that it can touch more people's life. I definately will give my best to support it!
.:: Chris enjoying::.. Ritz Apple Strudel and Young coconut juice.
.:: Chris listening::.. Where is the love - Black eye peas
.:: Chris feels::.. loved.
Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
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What type of eyes do you have?
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Your soul is OPTIMISTIC. You tent to look to the
brighter side of things, and your positive
outlook on life makes others happy. People love
your open, unassuming nature and your innocent
belief in good for you, the grass on your side
of the fence is always greener. You are rarely,
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your hardest to make life the best it can be,
for yourself and others. You are a joyful and
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Bring It On!
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004
Monday, June 21, 2004
booohooohoo.....last week of hols...gonna b a super boring but tensed up week...sianz....juz gonna be study study and study, And i hope i do i what i say~ haha
yurpz....was realli bored from studying the whole morning~ so come here and crap and continue some more lame quizes...heheh~
A GARAGE-GURL. Youre into loud music, hot guys and
wild fashions. Youre most at ease when you've
got all your mates around you and you like to
Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature,
sociability.
Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for
attention..
What kind of girl are you?
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Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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hahah~ not that bad yea~ quite close.....so dun call mi childish!!! =)
Raver Bear
Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.
What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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woohoo~ okaez...enough fun for now...go study liaoz...blarz~
Monday, June 21, 2004
Sunday, June 20, 2004
All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try
All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love - Nelly Furtado, Try
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Sunday, June 20, 2004
okay...after all the trashing out of thoughts and crying juz now....now feel so much better....gonna pick myself up again, so happened to tap on some real cool and funni quizes so try on it...hahah hope all this lame shit can cheer mi up yea~ =)
your asshole.
What swear word are you?
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1 part intelligence
3 parts courage
1 part empathyMethod:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little lustfulness if desired!
Personality cocktail
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You are a goddess!
Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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wahahaha!!!! lolz! tis is so crap!!!
Sunday, June 20, 2004
Saturday, June 19, 2004
.:: Song playing::.- Crystal tears by Scott Williams
Today started off pretty well but ended off pretty bad. Its both totally not related, but mayb cos its unrelated, but when compared, makes the big difference in my feelings for both.
In the morning, went down to Steven's road YMCA to help out in the heartzlink jumble sale. Realli cool manz... my first time and realli excited abt it. Yar, saw many people that i've not seen for long. Other than shawn whom i've seen more then often (haha), saw ximei,shu hui, andy, thomas, kenny, cherrie, jasmine, ronghui, uncle jim, timothy, Tracey and vick. Oh, got to know this guy hu's oni sec1, kok siang from YSP, veri nice and friendly guy. Yar...Tok to Vick, realli miss him manz~ Still as caring as ever, asking mi how am i nowadaes. Dunno why juz can feel this special concern when tok to him ever since last time. The nicest guy I've ever noe. Miss those days where after volunteer outings or wadever, taking bus home together and he will walk mi home, or we will share cab and he will always send mi home first. Will always feel so motivated when toking to him and secure when wif him. Oopse haha~ sound like i like him or something, haha juz that he's realli veri nice larz...
Yurpz, then went lunch wif shawn, uncle jim and two new japanese friend of Shawn's at Scotts. Noe that Japanese guy from the Youth Forum, but juz got to met his wife. Realli funnily fun people. Loving couple. Though there's language barrier, but still had a happy lunch together. Haha regret not going for the International Sports Carnival at Penang manz....so fun and can meet so mani fun people.
Yeah~ back home, when i on my comp to check my email, everything great today no longer significant. Email filled with msges of councillors posting their thoughts and comments about wat happened yesterday on the council blog. Read through everything one by one and tears juz incontrollably filled my eyes. I dunno, its this feeling that im realli sad. Admit, rather disappointed and unhappy at some of the comments.I tink no wan can understand my feelings now. No one. Even I myself dunno how to sae it. Why has the council that has brought mi so much beautiful memories become so political and stuff. I mean, can call mi immature or watever, can't everything b juz so pure and simple? I noe we can't turn back things that has happened, but haven the friendships that we haf built strong enough to pervent things from happening even before we start regretting it?
Everyone that has posted or commented has a point in one way or another,but everyone is too so engross in saying what they feel. Like Everyone wans to tok but no wan is listening. I got so many things that i want to post on the council's blog too, but wasn't able to log in.
Nvm ,tink even if i manage to log in, i also dunno how to say what i want to say and what i feel into words. Moreover, this time, watever has happened has one way or another concerned mi in a pretty personal way. Dun tink i can stay neutral or rational in my words. Dun want to post things and cause more commotins, shall juz keep my commands to myself to reflect upon it. But mayb if there's a chance, juz want to clarify some stuff.
Yeah` another bad thing that happened is the failure in pushing for the council cd-packaging. Make mi go through so much work and now everything is scrap. A bit angry and disappointed, bcos this time not only has affected mi alone, but my dad and his work. Think back, only giving budget for cd, then why the hell ask mi to be in charge of packaging since there is no budget for packaging. Why gif mi a responsiblity to make mi put effort into it and ended up feeling not needed and not neccessay? I juz hate the feeling of bringing somewan high up then let the person fall. (Bad memories from gym last time). Why is it repeating again?!?!
ArgH!Juz want to end the council term wif something realli nice for council, At least the best i tink i can gif. but wif all that has happened. Im realli tired. Tired of everything that is happening around mi. Tired of being the angel peacemaker. Tired of giving my best.
Juz tired. I wan to give up.Im soooo tired. Not the first time im going through this and I hate it. Everytime u feel so great, like u are the happiest person in the world and holds the most beautiful memories, then it follows with darkness that blinds everything else. Falling from a higher spot is always more painful and dangerous. I hate this feeling. How i wish can get back the simple life that i've longed to have.
.:: chris feels::.confused.lost.hurt
Saturday, June 19, 2004
haiz.....2dae was a totally screwed up day. So many unpleasent things happened. Well, went to school as normal for investiture rehersal. Was a combined rehersal wif the 27th. At first,everything went on fine, all of us were happily sitting there looking at the elects and commenting on the so many things they haf to improve on (guess last yr we were also like tat). Haha but most of us agreed that they will learn through their coming council journey. Nvm, then we went through our part of the investiture, well, i should sae that with all the many experiences we had, we haf met up wif the expectations. Yea, seemed like it shows how capable our council are yea...
But definately not when conflicts start to build up when among ourselves, we were commenting on changing the entrance song. Well, i guess to be more specific, it was between Solico and Aesthec.Solico wans to haf something more loud like Jamilia's Superstar, but Aesthec feels that to go with the 27th solemness for the investiture, we should stay with classical music or instrumental jazz.
yurpz, so the commotion started, knew that my fellow Aesthec members were realli unhappi abt that. They were even angrier when they heard Andre scold Aesthec 'fucked up'. Bloody hell~! I mean its okay if we dun see things from the same point of view, but there's no need to scold vulgarities at us ritz~! Who will not be angry when someone scold ur commitee like that~
Think back on my own stand, I really feel that they realli take things too serious and too harsh lorz~ I mean, we were not against your idea, juz suggested that lets take a vote. I mean is it fair that u guys can choose to stand up for what u tink is better and we can't??? Moreover, arn't it all for making OUR investiture a better wan for the school to remember us??? FOr mi, I realli tried to be the peacemaker like what I haf always been lorz, After the disagreement, i tried to calm Hsing Chieh , Xinhui they all down and juz put things back to normal...But then it realli do piss mi off when u scold us like that~ RIGHT IN OUR FACE! Okay, im getting a bit irrational here liaoz, dunno if im seeing things in this way cos its MY commitee and im siding it but yar....
I seriously feel that after like one whole long council term, is this the type of friendship that we haf built? Before everything, we were still watching clarence's video and bringing back sweet memories of how we went through events after events together as one. And now, on the day of rehersal for the stepping down of our council, we are having internal conflict? WHAT'S THIS MANZ!!!!
Yurpz, i dunno, but kind of feel realli disappointed to see what happened today, eveyone so segregated back to their own commitees. I tot we are One COuncil, One Voice, One, body, One mind, One soul, AS ONE???? Well mayb all this has proven to be crap after what happened today. Exactly how close are we as one council? I tot we all shld haf learnt to see things in others perspective, be patient with one another and be open to one another? I tink its juz normal for even any person to haf these simple qualities lorz, not mentioning us the council, who are supposedto be exemplary and elite of all. Yar...oni elite in our work and for show to others, within ourselves ~ no. yurpz, juz veri sad to see the friendship in council turn sour.
My words to Andre:
Hey dude, i know u r seriously a very nice guy, juz always too crude wif ur words. I mean its not the first time. U hurt mi and my clan during 01 and said it was a joke. Fine, mayb i was getting too attached and emotional then. But now u r scolding my commitee, in vulgarities. Pls, take notes of ur words, u r not hurting a commitee of people, u r hurting and almost destroying the friendship that we haf built as well. sometimes, not everything said can be simply juz be treated as a joke.
My words to Limei:
Sorrie dear, was realli disappointed to haf heard abt ur comments abt mi during the cheerleading times, I mean I trusted u as a gd friend who share the same views and passion to bring up the cheerleading culture of Nanyang, but u accused mi of saying things about ur team behind ur back and not going direct to u. Well, if i did gif u the impression i did that, or if i did out of irrationality or something, im realli sorrie. I realli dunno what else to say. So many things happened between u and my commitee, its realli hard for mi to take stand sometimes and i believe u noe that i wunt.
To Solico:
We are one council. not juz as commitees. I hope there wunt be grudges between the two commitees. Though today haf realli hurt us deep, let bygons be bygons. Everything, we can sae things out. If u guys think that we are like gossiping and toking back abt each other's commitee outside the SL today, I realli dun mind admitting it. Not that we wan to worsen the situation, but pls try to stand in our shoes to see that we are realli rather pissed off and juz need to throw things out to feel better. If we did make u guys feel wronged in anyway, pls tell us.
And to my dear Aesthec,
Sometimes, we are also too into ourselves, we might also sometime tends to neglect other people's feelings when we tok and offended ppl when we dun noe. I mean as a commitee for so long,I definatly understand that we juz need to say our unjust or our anger out juz to feel better, but sometimes, still have to control abit cos it will definately hurt for whoever hears it and gets affected.But we definately are no push-overs. Although Im always like trying to be the peacemaker and be optimistic about everything that went on,u noe like try to prevent conflicts when possible, but definately will not let aniwan go over our heads too far~ Im still part of Aesthec.
To the whole council,
I hope council will still exist as 1. Juz some thoughts for everyone to ponder upon, 'How deep is your love?' We have definatly did a great job and should be proud of it, but our everlasting journey will not end here, cos the friendship should still be sailing strong against all waves and tides. We have left a legend behind, let it continues and last forever. A star will never be significant in the wide horizon. Its when all the stars comes together to shine against all darkness, then the magestic sight of the galaxy will be appreciated. I luv ya guys lotz~!
Woahz, never wrote such a long blog before, but realli had lots of sentiments about it, cos it definately affects mi great. If not i wunt be sitting here in the middle of the night at 3 plus to put all my feelings down. Haiz...
.:: Chris Feels::.. sad and disappointed(admit im a bit tearing)
p.s I wunt realli expect aniwan to read my blog, but if aniwan does read and realli feels offended, let mi apologise first.
Saturday, June 19, 2004
Thursday, June 17, 2004
haiz...lazy day. Didn't feel like going to school to study 2dae, so stayed at home tinking that i can study at home as well. BUT! DAMM! I can't! So noisy and hot at home, wif my bro and sis screaming here and there, can't even study lorz!!! Wasted one whole day! Shall camp in sch everyday from 2mr onwards till hols ends.
Yurpz... so ended up watching tv, which i dun usually do. Grandma called at abt 8 plus to ask mi watch channel U, got my uncle. Haha~ yea~ indeed, saw my uncle, Dr Lin, on that shi jie wu jie xian show, showing him and some volunteers at Iran. Haha he grew fatter! Aniwae , quite inspired by what they were doing there, nothing very great, but still, tink it does make a big difference to the life of the refugees there. Actually always had a dream to join the UN missionary troop to go to all those countries to volunteer, but seems rather impossible to me, now that im so
'unfit' can't jog, so can't join SAF. Haiz...people call my dream impractical, but i dunno. Its juz something inside mi that i want to do such stuff. Remember last time when Dr Lin gave up his job as a high-paid doctor to be a pastor and to be a travelling volunteer, everyone in the family was like talking behind him,saying that its so stupid and so impractical, so unfilial and stuff...But how many people truely understand the feelings and passion of some people who realli wants to make a difference to other people's life, especially those who totally had no ability to change their own fates, and those that most people wunt even care abt these refugees's lives and death.
Hmmm....mayb after A's or something, see if i can tag along wif my uncle to do some missionary work somewhere. I realli hope i haf the chance~
yurpz, after that 9p.m, watch my favourite chi show, a child's hope II, haha another inspiring show, the last season of this show a few yrs ago make me set my aim to take up psychology, so that next time can be a counselleur to help people, juz like the jinghao in the show, people tell me that those jobs as counselleurs dun get a good pay and its tough job, haiz....though i noe that i dun mind, but practicallity wise, still haf to consider it. Dunno why i believe that as long as one have the passion to do something, other factors will not matter, but i seem to make the practicallity of it affects my determination towards it. Am I not passionate about it enough? I dunno.
Yeah~ another thing in the show, see all the kids suffering from all the illnesses, sometimes realli hope i can do something for them. Sometimes thinking, if these kids do not the support from their family and from their loved ones and from those volunteers, their lives would definately be so grey. I realli tink im lucky to haf a normal family and lead a happy life. A Quote from the show, ' Happi or not, we must live on. So why not live a happy life.'
Yurpz~ So, i must learn to not grumble so much and appreciate everything around me. Be happy for everything around me and learn to understand people from other's point of view. Hehe` live would be happier live this i hope~ =)
WAhz~~!! Shin juz called to ask mi if im going down for the party at Centro 2nite!!! damm! so tempted to go~ but nvm I shall resist temptation and mugg for now` jia you! Chris!!!ARGH~
You have a free soul! As all the souls go, yours is
the most free-spirited and adventurous. You
like camping, hiking, or interaction with other
people. Your a social butterfly, but not
because of your style, but because of your
willingness to communicate with everyone. You
probably have close friends who can rely on you
because you always seem to know whats going on
in the world. You love music and are
free-spirited and someone fun to be around. A
born leader and great explorer-dont ever
change-the world needs more people like you.
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Pink:
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.
What color do you see the world in?
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Thursday, June 17, 2004
Wednesday, June 16, 2004
YEAH~~!~! Got a new blogskin~ Haha nice nice...I like!!! Spent pretty a long time personalizing it as much as possible. Hehe Though I still got a lot of things i want to add on, like msg tagboard, counter, music etc. hee~ Oh yar! and i want to learn how to link ppl's web to mine and nice webbies i like~
Haha never knew i could do all this. Tot i've always been a computer idiot. But realli feel quite proud of this new blogskin look. lolz~ Not like im gonna let a lot of ppl see it~ but aniwae,I myself see liaoz happy can liaoz...
Yeah~ 2nd day of the third week of hols liaoz and im still pretty nowhere. Realli need to buck up manz!!!!
Went school 2dae to study and saw the 27th moving into the council room. They were busi packing and cleaning up the place. Look at them, no longer from the inside out, but now from the outside in. The feeling is so different. Im definately gonna miss that small junky room full of memories.
Haha~ yurpz, can realli see that the 27th were realli excited, just like us one yr ago. Can see them put in a lot of effort to pack and clean the room. But there are still certain things that they haf neglected. Nvm, tats y they are always there to learn. Jia You~ 27th!
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You should be dating a Gemini
21 May - 20 June
This mate is inquisitive, entertaining and
charming, liberal, broad-minded and youthful.
Though Gemini has a tendency to be impatient,
gossipy and sometimes irritable, this twin has
the ability to expresses his or her pent up
emotions during sex!
What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Today went back to school to pack my stuff from the council room. Dug out all the junks from the aesthec cupboard and found so many documents and other crap of last time's project, Orientation2's logistics, Council Camp Programme, all the past designs i scribble for council etc. Haiz....realli comming to the end of the council term, can't deny it anymore. It seems juz yesterday that im cracking my brain for designs for our council board and council tee. So fast. Council days passed like its just yesterday. Stare at the council room thinking that next time it will not be my council room anymore. Think im realli gonna miss it. Feli's right. No more place for us to gather imprompto as council animore. Gonna feel veri lost when school re-open, no place to go before assembly when i reach school, no place to hang-out during breaks, no place to go after school. Gonna haf lesser chance to sit down, tok crap and gossip with the councillors like what we used to do. Im gonna miss those days. Realli. Gonna be a lost sheep in school, with no sense of belonging like i used to have.
Suddenly this emptiness in mi. Don't realli want to show it, but it realli matters to mi and I noe no matter what i have to accept it.
After i pack my stuff, went over to SL to study. So many councillors inside there. Look at that, is that gonna b the last time we sit together like that to study? I hope not. I will miss the company of everyone of u. Gonna say I love everyone of you before I don't haf a chance to do so anymore.
Yurpz, 2dae went Shawn called mi up to confirm tuition time, she sound so stressed up. Hope she's okay~ Jia You Shawn! Dun so stress, I noe u can do it!!! Tink its just a period that most A level students have to go through. And was msging Clarx on ICQ 2dae, he's rushing with the aesthec council's CD-rom as well as the investiture presentation. Jia You dude!! the whole aesthec's behind you~ We noe u can do a great job!!! Oh yar~ and Raymond is sick too~ Tink he caught a cold.take care! Dun mug so hard and forget to rest yea~
Aqua! Your eyes are Aqua! You're a very energetic
and fun-loving person, although at times you
can be mellow. Your friends love you! Try not
to let your need to have a fast heart rate ruin
your health.
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Rafael. You're most like the ArchAngel of Healing.
You want people to shape up, and you nag. But
you mean well, and you're well loved despite
it. Or because of it. You bring the donuts
even as you tell people to eat more veggies.
Which ArchAngel are you most like?
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Tuesday, June 15, 2004
Monday, June 14, 2004
hmmmm....sun, pretty nice day. Woke up early to go swimming wif junmin. Hahaha...feel fit from the start of the day. Mayb next time i shall go swim more often. Last time had a plan to swim every tue, thur, sun and go gym every mon, and fri for the hols but apparently didn't realli stay by my words. Its realli tough to haf the discipline to drag myself out of bed every cosy morning manz~
Aniwae yar junmin was funni, as usual. Tried so hard to get tanned by finding mi to go swim wif her. But in the end its always mi who get chao-ta and she still got no reaction. (And i always try so hard to dun get tanned somemore!)lolz~
Mayb its juz human nature that we are never satisfied with what and how we are. hahha.
Aniwae, yeah~ then went on to mugging again. Mugging session. 2dae went Dad's new office to mug. Pretty cool place since its like so deserted and new, got no temptaion. So i guai guai study. And it was quite efficient!!! hahah~ mayb next time shld do that more often.
oh yar!! and 2dae, got pretty irritated by --. Keep asking mi to go pub wif him ever since yesterday. But i seriously dun feel like going lorz!!! At tis pt of time when im supposed to be stressed over my studies, ask mi to go one on one pubbing, a bit the ... lorz. Yar dunno why he's been trying to ask mi out almost everyday. Haiz, if i ever gave him the wrong impression that im interested in him~ im realli sorrie. U'R NOT MY TYPE!!!!
Haiz watever, sometimes can't relationships juz stay as simple as friendship? Well, at least its the oni type of relationship so far that i see it as can be genuine and lasting. Watever, i dun want to let relationship make mi trouble at this time of my life. Got not enough memory space in mi for all this crap liaoz. Watever will b mine will be mine, no pt worrying or crave over it.
Life still goes on. =)
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BLUE
You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive.
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Monday, June 14, 2004
Sunday, June 13, 2004
Not a bad saturday. At least im not stuck at home the whole day staring at my notes. Went ikea and spotlight with xinhui today to shop for inspirations for the packaging of the council yr-cd. Hmmm... dunno why creativity didn't realli flow in my brain 2dae. Didn't realli manage to come out with any realli fresh or beautiful ideas.
Haiz....realli wan to do this last project of mine a great success. Its gonna be my last work piece as the creative director and its gonna b aesthec's final gift to the council. Our days left in council doing all this stuff is limited. Mayb its juz mi and my perfectionalism. I either don't do it, or i will do it great. And i've set my choice on the later. Gonna gif my last dash on this remaining bit of the june holidae to finish this project well as to catch up with my studies. Jia You Chris!
Blarz. Noe its gonna be easier said than done. It always happens to mi. Im so sick of it. Realli want to stay by my words but can oni pray that i can manage to perserve on and push thru this tiring and tough period.
Yea~ juz finsih watching the Euro 2004 Portu vs. Greece match. Wat a boring game. But unexpected win by Greece with a 2:1. Hmmm...tink most people had expected Portu to win ( alreadi noe that Zhiyang and Yee Cheong lose $ on their bets). Haha~ My sympathy to them.
Not so much on the game. but dunno why, everytime i watch sports games or matches, it always brings mi back the memories of gym days. The days where im proud to be a sports girl for st'nicks, wearing those beautiful leaotards and sch track suits into the competition ground, giving my best and even my life into training, juz for one aim to win nationals. Miss those days. At least for then, life has a goal and something that i look froward to acheive veri badly. Bet my determination and self-discipline then was like much much much much better then now. Then, all those ups and downs realli make mi feel like an ultimate winner and as well a super loser. But then im always able to pick myself up again.
Now, I don't realli noe who i am animore. No longer posses those qualities I have last time that im proud of. Haiz...I tink i've changed a lot. Not saying for the better or for the worst, but juz changed. Like a floating leave in the the authum, i want to fly, fly and explore to find myself back.
Christine was
an Athletic Guidence Counselor
in a past life.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
Saturday, June 12, 2004
- :: + gEt a LiFe + :: - 
Saturday, June 12, 2004
Boring Day! This june holiday is realli super dry and dead manz! Not that there's no activities but i can only treat them as devil's temptaions. Supposed to be a good girl and stay at home and catch up with revision. ARgH! Its realli torturous for hyper-active brats like mi manz. AHHHH!!!! Can't wait for A's to be over!!!!
Haiz...complain so much. Now alreadi and of the 2nd week of the hols liaoz and my revisions are going nowhere. *sOb* Frankly speaking, im getting a bit tensed and annoyed with myself. Why am i juz so inefficent and not motivated when it comes to academic??? An its something i can't escape!!! Mayb Andre is rite in some sense that since im so enthu in every other thing other then studying, jc is realli not the path for mi.... haiz...but too late... no point crying over spilled milk now. Can only make do with watever it is and make the best out of it!!! Go Chris! jia you!
Yeah~ basically 2dae did nothing much. Wake up super late ...then study study study. Went for blood donation at Mandrain then went for math tuition. Only at tutition then i realised i've forgotten so much of my work manz!! PANIC!!!
Haiz..hope for the remaining 2 weeks, i can realli focuse and speed up my revision manz...if not im dead!!!
.:: How Chris feels::. Stressed and Panicking!!!
Saturday, June 12, 2004
Thursday, June 10, 2004
+ life. the beach beyond the wide horizon +
Thursday, June 10, 2004
think im realli getting weirder. 2:30 am in the middle of the nite and im here creating a new blog.can't sleep. haha. can't remeber tis is my no. wad blog. all my previous blogs are all now lost and dead. i can't even remeber it myself. (except for my personal private wanz) although im like not veri into tis type of public blog but juz suddenly haf tis urge in mi to create wan to throw out every thoughts that has been running in my head. hope tis time tis blog of mine will last.
haiz.....life has been so such a rush. so fast and now everything is already juz memories. so many things happened and so many things changed.my sch life. council. volunteering. my family. my passion. my dreams. my plans. the ppl arnd mi.even mi myself. i dunno.if only i can catch them back one by one. if only i haf juz one more chance to go back and change everything. would i haf taken a veri different path? i dunno...i realli dunno.
aniwae tis is juz a start of for this blog of mine. where im going to throw juz anything and everything here. hoping that tis can b some form of flashback for myself....
Thursday, June 10, 2004
:: tHe Girl in mI ::
+| Christine Ng Kai Xin |+
+| 12th October 1986 |+
+| Libra |+
+| Maha Bodhi Pri. |+
+| St'Nicks Girls |+
+| SNGYM |+
+| CJC |+
+| NYJC |+
+| 26th Student Council |+
+| NTU - COE Yr1 |+
+| Hall 12 5th JCRC |+
+| SVC . YMCA |+
::mY dEsIrEs::
sun.sand.sea
chilled to freeze
dUdeS anD bAbEs
warm thy heat
26 memorisez
Frenz Footprintz
passion
dreamx
inspirations
love
freedom
::cRavEs oF pAsSiOn::
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::foOtsTePs oF fRiEnDs::
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|jianing|
|shawnie|
|suellen|
|jinxun|
|shin|
|pinkyu|
|yongxin|
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|hsien zhuang|
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|kevin|
|Raf.|
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|fi5h|
|daniar|
|angel|
|meiting|
|michelle|
|clorine|
|Yu Ran|
|jacyn|
|sya|
|nadiah|
|jillian|
|chelsea|
|mira|
|isabelle|
|joelyn|
|blessann|
::sParKleS oF lIfe::
|Roxy|
|Rip Curl|
|Billabong girls|
|Billabong|
|nike|
|quizilla|
|Poems and Quotes|
|wakeboarding|
|jitterbugs dance|
|amore|
|urberture|
|Singapore Hotspots|
|kbox|
|gym pics|
|26sc photos|
|Blogskins|
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|NTU-Hall12|
|Ministry of Sound|
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